My Latest Read

I was given this book written by Paulo Coelho, its called The Witch of Portobello. I like his writing style but this book is just a wonder. Its about spirituality, being true to yourself. It questions beliefs and makes you think out loud. I read the whole book in one sitting (except to break for meals) and that's just because my stomach was becoming to loud to ignore. This book is a must read.

One review says "This is a book to be read slowly and with a great deal of self-reflection. It's not a breezy beach vacation read, but it's worth the work. It's a book about soul, so get ready to grapple with your own."

Another "I literally could not put this book down. While I'm a book lover and devour many books, I consider this one to be a very special treat."

I've got Enya playing in the background as I continue reading this book about spirituality and being true to yourself. All in all a good evening.

My advice for today, get this book. But I will blog more on it once I'm done.
Love y'all.

To Do: Learn Spanish and Pose For a Nude

Not that I have dreams of visiting a Spanish speaking country or anything, I just think Spanish is a very romantic language (yeah it trumps French in my books).
The stats are as follows: Time it takes - 2 years on average
Attractiveness of the goal - 17312 people want to do this.

So far it seems this goal at least has a bigger following and mostly the females. Are we all hankering for an Alejandro or Miguel of our own? With big rippling muscles and all the good-good of the genetic pool? Damn you Spanish soap operas.....

My To-Do number 5 is to one day pose for a nude...........painting or sculpture, haven't decided which, with my face obscured of course. No use having a questionable past when I decide to run for office....giggle.
For some reason I am the only one who wants to do this....hmmmm in fact there are completely no stats for the said goal and the website keeps telling me to share my goal with other people. So here I am sharing it with you.
Posing nude has really nothing to do with showcasing x-rated art to me. Goodness no, its just about doing something eccentric. Be sure if there is something eccentric in this world my name might be right next to it, perhaps even the inventor of. It would just be a pose then the artwork can as well burn after. Just to feel that sense of accomplishment to do what most people would not dare.
Here is to hoping that my father never gets to read this post.....
Goodnight people and dare to live wild today...........

To Do: Knit A Scarf :)

I bet some of you are already rolling their eyes at this post but in my defense knitting a scarf to the finish has always been a challenge for me. I always start but lose interest midway (OK more like after thirty minutes of, non-concurrent, knitting. For me this will be more of a been-there-done-that kind of thing.
The stats are as follows: Time it takes to complete - 1 month on average
Attractiveness of goal - 561 people all want to do this.

Some of the comments for it get a little bit boring down the site but we won't go into that now. My mum has always been great at knitting and growing up I used to watch her knit just about anything for us, from sweaters, leg warmers, baby bootees, long as she had the pattern nothing was too difficult for her. So from that early on I used to attempt to knit, first I started with two skinny broomsticks as needles, can't even begin to count the number of splinters I got from that. Then finally she let me graduate to needles (excitement right?) wrong, the excitement lasts for like twenty minutes only then all i tended to do was stare at this heap of barely made scarf and big ball of wool. I stared at it so hard sometimes and sadly I did not suddenly discover I had scarf-knitting vision, sigh.
All in all, I will knit that scarf, I will, I will, I will...........

To Do: Go Bungee Jumping

The roof is still in place, I've not received any untoward calls so my to-do list continues.
My list is now upto 31 things who knew I could add more things and on a whim too :-) very pleased with myself (just incase the smiley face was lost on anyone).
So my second to do happens to be to "go bungee jumping". And my fear of heights not withstanding, I will also be throwing myself off the bridge while tied to a rope and hope to God that the guys I let do the tying went to a fully fledged school. The website says I share this goal with 1536 people and it apparently will take me on average about two years to accomplish this goal. So I'm thinking that is enough time to seek a hypnotist or find out I have only a few months to live thus giving me much needed "balls" to take the dive :-) Or I could just grow a pair........
For those interested in attempting said goal, bungee jumping is done on the Tana River at Savage Wilderness Safari Camp located on the Nairobi to Nanyuki Road. Happy gut-wrenching-penance-inducing-scream-filled fun. Send me a postcard won't you?

To Do: Have A Baby

Sometime ago I registered in this site called 43 things (www.43things.com) and its a website where you list 43 things you would like to accomplish in your life. Its very interesting because you can see if you share a particular goal with someone, interact with them even and when you accomplish it you can list it as done and people congratulate you. Its my feel-good site. So over the next few posts (if peace prevails in my life and I have no urgent news) I will share some of the things that my heart desires to put down as an accomplishment in life. So far I have only 29 things, though they used to be 30. Yes, that's right I actually accomplished one thing. I cut my hair. Ok, granted it may not be your ooooooh accomplishment but its a big deal to me so get your own 43 things :)
My first to-do is funny enough "to get a kid" and according to the site i share that goal with 250 other people. And 36 out of 36 people think its worth doing. For those of you not so good at Math that is 100%.
So what is all the rave about having a kid? Well it is actually a big deal apart from the fact that you life changes totally....wait, that is the biggest fact.
It means being responsible for another human being who is totally dependent on you. Forget about you happy-go-lucky-I'm-free-to-go-anywhere lifestyle. Another big thing for me is that you stretch out, your body expands to accommodate this person you are carrying around, you have to eat for two now and you have to be conscious of what you put down your throat.
Personally I love sleeping on my stomach almost 80% of my sleeping time but get this, when you are preggers you have to just sleep on your sides. Your old clothes don't fit, you probably don't fit through some places like matatus, there is the morning sickness, the mood swings....oooppphhh i could go on and on. And yet, here it is on my to-do list. There is just this inane desire to be a mother at some point in my life, call it maternal instincts or society.
A time will come...........

Not THIS Hurdle Again!!

So today I'm thoroughly confused, I know not what to blog about...yet, I have so much in me that needs saying. *sigh* such is the life of this confused blogger. Well as for progress I got my manuscript proposal to fill for publication of my book and wouldn't you know it, turns out filling in this 3-paged form is a whole lot harder than even writing the book was.

As it turns out I've noticed my life is a lot filled with hurdles and obstacles. In almost each and every thing I try to undertake there is always that one thing that makes it a bit harder to get there. Some of you are probably rolling your eyes at this but you need to understand that I hate complications, hustles, diversions...anything that deviates from my plan. I have a need to be in control of things that go on in my life. I don't think I'm a control freak per se.....I just like to have things in certain orders.........ok so I'm a bit of a control freak.

But in life things usually tend to flow in a direction that may be altogether strange or inconveniencing and that's the hardest part to accept: that once in a while instead of you running your life, it will run you. Now here comes the magicians rabbit-in-a-hat trick.....knowing when to let life run its course and knowing when its time to jump in and take the reins. When you discover your limits and your life's path, then life becomes your playground. I cannot say much on how to achieve this because I'm still the daily toiler fighting against the forces.

Keep reaching out to hold on to that extra branch that will take you to where you need to be and hold fast, the obstacles, believe it or not, are movable and sometimes even imaginary. Hey, no one promised you a bed of roses did they?

Keep reaching.....hold fast!
Keep reaching.....hold fast!
Keep reaching.....hold fast!

The Unraveling Of Me

So far in this blog I’ve been shying away from delving too deep into my emotional core. I have never really been someone who is lays open her heart for all to see and somehow that has worked well for me all these years. But as a writer i want to take a dive into the deep end and do some sharing.

Of late I’ve been having a crisis of purpose so to speak. I find myself at this point in my life where I’m not sure where the way ahead is. I can’t go back for obvious reasons and i can’t seem to focus on the path ahead or even to figure out which it is. In a not-so-cryptic way what i mean is that I’m not really sure what i want in life.

Free styling through life used to be fun, adventurous and i must admit, quite becoming. Somehow, on the way time kept overtaking me and now I’m at a place stuck with no idea how to get unstuck. I don’t really mind it but it would be nice to just wake up and know “This is what I have to do in order to get to where I want to be”. It gets truly depressing at times that i have to go within, to collect myself and my sanity alongside. It’s usually all I can do to keep from becoming undone.
What keeps me going however is the fact that i believe there is a difference between “being where you want to be” and “being where you are meant to be”. I want to be lots of things, I want to be a poet, an author, an actuary, an economist, a mathematician, an artist, a wife, a mother, a good friend, a faithful employee...the list is endless and I’m determined to propitiate karma. So help me.

So it will take me long to get to where i need to be, then so be it. I’m gonna take each day as it comes doing the things that make me happy. Stay sane and keep my options open for any opportunity. Hey, what else can a sista do?

Oh No! Not Another Political Debate

Today I've been having this slowly growing political debate with one of my acquaintances. And it all stemmed from a status update on Facebook. So, my status update in short was about political leaders who take advantage of the sympathy of the masses to forward their status in life.

I feel that there are leaders who hide behind glowing manifestos and reform agendas which I'm very sure that most of those documents are written by PAs or brainstorming teams. Its so easy for someone to hide behind a cause and do things that they put as "justifying the course of justice".

Having said that I need to speak of my thoughts on Osama bin Laden. For me he is the epitome of evil hiding behind a cause. It might not necessarily represent a cause for most of the world but it is true that most Islamic nations view the US as a dictator power and are constantly on the news opposing this and that about the US of A. It used to be enough for them to just burn their flag on TV to show their anger but it took the thinking of some select few to turn it into a "cacophonous" mess of lost lives and thinking based on how much blood is shed.

My thinking is just that,MY THINKING. And Lord knows it has generated a slow building political discussion which is not really my thing but I certainly dug that hole so I must sink deep into it.

To All My A-Little-Insane Friends (With Love)

Sitting down today to catch up with one of my very good friends it occurred to me how lucky I am that there exist people in this world who actually get me and my quirks. Everyone who is close to me kind of just flow into my eccentricities and boy, am I glad that such a feat is possible.

So I got to thinking, when we were younger we were stuck on this idea that someone needs to have a best friend. Just one person in this whole wide world whom you can tell EVERYTHING and who will hold your hand through it all. I guess that was all well and good then because life was still simple and your biggest problem was probably who was going to be assigned as your seatmate in class. And at that time there was always an available person who encompassed all the characters you wanted in a best friend and hooray! he/she was also on the lookout for a best friend too. So after a shared break-time snack....you "nabbed" yourself a best friend. Life complete right?

However as you grow older you soon realize that one single person just simply cannot personify ALL that you desire in a "best friend". So the easiest thing that we do is to have several close friends and this works really well because most people tend to generally have some similar interests as well as several clashing ones. For example one will have a friend whom you can confide in about your love life, those you talk to when you need spiritual advice, those who are good for fun, those who are there just for a good laugh and so on. This in its entirety I believe is the best way we have learnt to cope as adults in this world. Know the people around you, know of what use you can be to them and more significant, learn of what importance they are to you. Just be thankful for your close friends, always.

For All the Mothers

So I've walked around the wide world(via internet of course) and I return to make my usual but random post. So I've been going through this jobless phase and it seems even employers have conspired to keep me that way. Since when has it become a prerequisite for someone to pay money for a job or to give away your dignity to secure a position? If I had the guts I would name and shame the culprits for all to read. This however still remains a story for another day.

Exactly one month ago today, we rushed my sister in law to hospital and after along theater procedure a beautiful baby girl was brought into this world, albeit a few weeks too early. And we were certainly not prepared for the news we got about the baby's complications but we still took it in our stride. Through the one month of admittance my sister in law put a brave face as she nursed my niece back to health.
In this weekend as we mark Mothers' day worldwide I would just like to take the time to recognize all the mothers out there who have been there for us in ways that can never be fully thanked for, for all the prayers whispered for us under their breath and the silent driving force that enabled us to get to where we are.

There is no way that a mother can be fully appreciated but all we can do is just to let them know that we are who we are because they were who they were with us. They love, we love them back. And there is no other gift greater than this.

I love you mum.