UNTITLED 8

If all you see
Is the mad in me
The crazy, the insane
The psycho battles I face

Then what you see
Is really but part of me
I like to think
I'm wonderfully bad,
fancifully confused,
beautifully twisted,
serenely lost

If all you see
Is the mad in me
Then you need to redefine
What mad really is.

UNTITLED 7

When I said I loved you
Did you believe me?
When I chose that moment to tell you
Was it the right one?

Immediately after I said it
I looked at you
And a momentary shadow of doubt
Crossed my mind
Do I?

Then as quickly as the doubt came
It disappeared.
I don't love you....
What I feel
Surpasses words
Worlds....
And creates...
Unparalleled...
Its own voice of reason

Do I love you?
Yes and No
There's just...
No existence without you.

UNTITLED 6

Another place
Another time
Another choice
Another me
What would I be

Sometimes I wonder
Would it be better
Would it be worse?
For sure
It would be different.

Different stories
Different people
Who would they be?

I wouldn't mind
Because sometimes
I feel I would fit
Anywhere.....
But here.

UNTITLED 5

My heart strings
Strummed along as he sang
Beat for beat
Word for word

All the noise
Died down
And the world seemed
To exist for him alone
His rhythms
Rocked...everything

He feels the song
I feel him
His passion....
My passion....
And at the end of the song;
There exists,
Only endless promises
For me..
For him..
For us.

Still learning, Still sharing

I've been having very yo-yo ish days. Those days when you escalate from a high to a low to a middle and you don't even know what the heck to expect at the next second. All in all its been one learning experience after the other.

Lesson 1
I've learnt that no matter what dark place life takes me there is always going to be an exit sign somewhere if i look hard enough. Even if it means turning over stones and stepping on the occasional flower.

Lesson 2
I've learnt that no matter who someone is or who they know or who they share blood ties with or fences in upcountry with, they have ABSOLUTELY no right to treat you or talk to you as if you are not worth sh**. You ARE somebody. You might not be the richest, the smartest, the prettiest...hell maybe even your style sense got stuck in the holocaust years, you are still somebody. Nobody can bring you down unless you give them permission to. Do not apologise for being who you are.

Lesson 3
Family matters. Seriously, I used to think my family was slightly dysfunctional (though now i use the word 'eccentric' hehe), when i was growing up I used to imagine myself the long lost child of some different family somewhere and they would eventually come to get me. God must have been laughing pretty hard at those thoughts Score 1:God 0:Peachez :)But as time went by and my reasoning matured and i saw how they would alwys be by my side through every single event I went through..the magnanimity of the word family settled within me and just sort of wrapped itself around me. There is no better support system than knowing no matter how far you go out there and what you encounter..there is alwys someone somewhere looking out for you, to embrace you, share a laugh, share a tear. Fight a dragon or two (metaphorical ones of course unless you're caught in some time warp). Family is just the best.

I could say a lot more on these lessons but the best things I believe are those that you learn slowly so that it all has time to sink in and have a deep meaningful impact..yes.

God bless.